I’ve been hearing the word “PARTY” so much these past few days it sounds really weird to me now.

Not that the concept was ever not weird to me.

some days….

Every time I check my money in the bank I feel as though I am staring right at my death clock.

To write or not to write, that is the question.

I’m supposed to be writing a paper for college.

Instead, for some godforsaken reason, I have spent the past two hours reading Chuck Lorre’s vanity cards on his website. 

I think it’s because I feel inadequate as a writer. Sure a lot of people have been telling me that I write well. My two most recent English teachers have both sincerely told me that I have “such a control of language”, yadda, yadda, yadda. I’ve only just recently given any of it a second thought.

Anyway, so back to Chuck Lorre’s vanity cards. The man writes so damn well, I’m both inspired and insecure. Two hours reading vanity cards! I can’t read a book no matter how good it is for two hours, but I can read pointless rants from some TV writer. He’s good. 


I mean I love The Big Bang Theory and for a time, I did really enjoy Two and a Half Men. So I am…I don’t know, grateful(?) for Lorre. At the same time, there’s this unnerving tick in the back of my mind like some stubborn petulant five-year-old saying “I want to be a TV writer when I grow up”. How am I supposed to even compare to someone like him?

He’s got years of experience compared to me, I realize that. But maybe I’m just not good enough in the long run. I read the crap I write and I go: “I just don’t see it. How the **** do I write well?” I guess, compared to majority of what passes as literate population, I am “good”, but am I “good” enough?

In hindsight, I hate it when normal people compliment me for my writing skills. I want a writer, a proper writer, to tell me whether I have the potential to be a brilliant writer or not, too. (Though if there are any proper writers out there reading this, don’t judge me based on this piece of crap rant. I’m tired. Thought process is lagging. Can’t even imagine editing.)

Writing skills, my @$$. I can’t even finish writing a stupid two-page paper.

Ok. I probably just need to sleep.

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AP Biology Parody of LMFAO’s Sexy and I Know It.

My final project for AP Bio. For having only 2 days of filming and 3 days of editing, I thought it turned out well. (I will post the video with lyrics sometime…in the near future)

A faux trailer for a Hamlet movie.
-AP English 12 project

"The most essential gift for a good writer is a built-in, shock-proof, SHIT DETECTOR. This is the writer’s radar and all great writers have had it."
— Ernest Hemingway
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Well damn.

I accidentally changed my blog theme. All my work, hours and hours of hard work, is now gone. And my blog looks horrible again.

Tumblr should have a confirm button.

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